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There have been many times that I have been preoccupied with dying, no longer able to view a reason to stay on. I was caught in the dismal illusion that life was not worth living. But… there was something not truthful about this equation, I could not avoid that.
I had always wondered if I came back to life from nearly dying, if I could find a new hope to live for. And often I have fantasized over this because I found life to be such a struggle to enjoy. And so… my will to live is captured in a divine presentation ordered by Gods’ grace. Daniel’s death offered me the chance to step into deaths’ chambers and there find a hopelessness. And everywhere I looked there was emptiness, sadness and sorrow. My will was slowly being transformed into a desire for healing. Healing that comes from a will to live.
Daniel’s place in heaven has offered me a gift now 3 days from Christmas. An awareness that death is swallowed up by life. This is an unalterable image of truth. As much as death may seem like an end, truly it is just the beginning. Daniel smiles from heaven knowing that his father can touch life… maybe for the first time.
When the Lights go out – An intimate self portrait, by Robert Craig, will be available soon at Amazon.com